Monday, April 30, 2012

Long Time No Blog!

It has been an absolute crazy few months. I am so sorry I haven't been keeping up with my blog. 
I don't even know where to begin. Let's just say I am ready to kiss the semester goodbye. 
Between work, school and family and health issues I have been in extreme stress mode. 

My friends and family would call me a hypochondriac. I worry about every single thing. and I google way too much (GOOGLE is evil for me, I need to be banned). So pretty much I will google something and think I have it. I convince myself I am sick. Well it didn't help matters when I found a lump around the groin area. I automatically freaked out, but tried to stay calm before jumping to conclusions. Well I googled groin lumps right away and lets just say NOT HELPFUL. I went to the "female" doctor and she simply said its nothing to worry about its just a small inflamed lymph node, nothing to worry about, but if it gets bigger or starts to hurt to let her know. So I automatically stop worrying UNTIL a week later when I find ANOTHER bigger, harder lump above the other one. Immediately I burst into tears fearing the worst. I make an appointment with my regular physician this time hoping she would ease my worries about it. OPPOSITE she prescribed me medication and I was told to take it for 10 days and if it didn't go away I would need further testing. Well again I immediately freak out because I wanted an answer of "it's nothing to worry about." 
Ten days later the lump seems to have gotten smaller but it is STILL there. I am an absolute wreck, those were the longest 10 days of my life. In the meantime I had been frustrated with my physician for YEARS!  I hated going to him, but it was easy to go there. My older sister recommended that I go to the doctor she goes to, which happens to be in the same town where I am going to school. I make an appointment there. I am telling you that place is absolutely wonderful. The doctor actually LISTENED to me and didn't make me feel stupid for worrying. AND she said she doesn't feel it is anything serious and ran blood work as well just to easy my mind. She even gave me hug when I got upset explaining what was going on. I am SO glad that I switched. It is so nice to be heard. So anyway I have been trying not to worry, but the lump is still there, not growing or anything, but I go back on the 8th for a second appointment and we will go from there!

On a brighter note I only have 4 more days of classes and 3 finals until I finally am done with my first year of graduate school! I have to go a month in the summer for classes BUT I have a 10 day Florida trip coming up very soon (May 17th) that I am VERY excited for! My boyfriends family invited me down and I can not wait! I haven't been to the beach in 3 years!! :) 

I still have so much going on, but I will stop for the night :) 
Hopefully I will be able to update more often!! 

Have a goodnight :)